Highs and Lows

Pregnancy is all about emotional highs and lows. Sometimes in the same minute. I adore my kids. Tati and i have been going on dates to dinner and see movies and it has been a blast. She is at such a fun age. Alilia is so dang smart. She sings her ABC's and counts in Spanish. Who is this kid? My hubby is a rock. I cried the other day after we had lunch together and he had to go back to work. I was feeling so sick and all I wanted was for him to come home and hold me. He felt so bad watching me driving away sobbing. I have been sick, sick, sick. At one point, in the hospital because it was so bad. I'm, oh 13/14 weeks along and not getting better! I haven't been to the OB doctor yet because we have no insurance but it is something I am working on. And although I haven't heard this precious baby's heart beat I know he/she is healthy and doing well. It may be a medical miracle but I already feel this kid moving around. Usually when one of the other kids are leaning their head against my belly I fell a little "rub" or a "push". Or if I am squatting down I feel that tickling sensation of the baby moving so fast around. Girl, or Boy I am very excited for this baby. However horrible, this pregnancy has been I truly want to fill our house with these brown eyed little people. As I finished that sentence Alilia fell off the couch, bonked her head, ran to me and as i am comforting her looked up into my face and... spit. Like I said, highs and lows.