If Only...

Honestly today I feel like packing up all our stuff, or just leaving it, and moving to Hawaii. I am so sick with morning sickness and I know the only thing that will make me feel better is ocean wind and salty water. I need to feel Hawaii. Today I am sick of being a homeowner, responsible bill payer, and I look around my house and realize I wouldn't be sad to leave all of this. I wish I could have my little girls run around the beach while George is surfing and I am floating weightlessly in the ocean. I swear life was so uncomplicated when I could wash it away in the ocean. I have gotten caught up in superficial things. I have received more posesions and it hasn't made me a better person. I told George that as soon as you get off the plane in Hawaii the air hits you and puts a smile on your face. I crave Hawaii.

We are having another Baby!

I'm about 7/8 weeks along which isn't very far I know. I am very excited though. I can't wait for our life to get bigger. I was feeling content with our two and then suddenly had an overwhelming feeling to have lots and lots of babies. I want to fill our home with laughter and yelling. I want big Sunday dinners with the family. I want lots and lots of grand babies. "Family" is a relative term with my parents and siblings and love is hard to find. I realized that my children bring me so much joy and if my hubby is willing we are going to have at least one (maybe more?) after this one. I won't say I hope it is a boy...I will just say I hope this is a healthy, safe pregnancy and the baby grows to full term. I can't wait for that day in the hospital that this little human is put in my arms and I realize the responsibility I have. The girls are so excited and keep kissing my belly and talking to the baby. Tati said the other day, "Mom, we need to go buy some binoculars right away!" Me:"why?" Tati:" So I can look in your belly and see the baby!" Well my pregnancy whiffer is kicking in and a poopie Alilia is sitting next to me so.........

Alilia

(no pics of her on this computer:( )

Firecracker. Spitfire. Hellion. Smartypants. Jokester. All perfect words to describe this little "Big" girl. As a new baby Alilia would only let Mommy hold her. She was quiet and observed eveything. I had no idea what personality was going to come out of this dark eyed serious child. But when it came, it really came! At twenty months she is so smart! She can communicate clearly in sentences, sing songs and tease with the best of them. She loves to hit and pinch (no idea where that came from??). She is a master at hide and go seek. She only tells u she loves you when she really means it. She reserves her kisses for when you deserve it. She loves to "wrestle" Tati and usually ends up the winner. Her smile is infectious and she loves to laugh. When I go into her room in morning she puts her palm in my face and says "I want Daddy". She doesn't like me to hold other babies because she gets very jealous. Which brings me to......

A few words about Tatiana. I am amazed how perfect this girl is! Truly, I hardly ever get mad at her because when I do I remember how wonderful she acts 99% of the time. She is constantly making strangers into her friends and asking if they can come over to our house. I'm talking kids, senior citizens, teenage boys and even sometimes dogs. She is an amazing big sister. She is patient with Alilia and loves to cuddle with her. She will not only share with her sister, she will give her the bigger or better piece. She thanks me all the time for "being her Mommy", and would love if she could just sit and cuddle me all day. Tatiana was such an easy baby and I keep waiting for her to get harder but it doesn't happen. I sure love her and am

I'm back....

Well 2010 was a very hard year. We moved, had a miscarriage, started school, got in a little over our heads, evaluated relationships and went through some pretty stressful stuff. We also realized that we needed to make some future goals and start working on them. We need to get to a better place financially and we laid out some steps that we would take in 2011. I plan to finish hair school this year on top of doing permanent cosmetics and eyelash extensions. George is going to start Salt Lake Community College this year. This is a major thing for him and I am so proud of him!

We have become better acquainted with our ward which has been a huge blessing for us. We have made some great friends and enjoy doing social stuff. It took us a while to feel like this was "home" but it is getting pretty close!

Our major goal this year was to take some family road trips. We completed our first one last weekend and it was a success! We stayed in St. George and went biking in Zions and then hung out in Vegas. George and I kept saying to each other that we need to do this more often because we truly had so much fun. Next stop.... Arizona!

My goal is start keeping a regular post on here. So stay tuned:)